I hope that you are all doing well. Ive been doing My share of sending love into the Universe regularly and have tried My hardest to remain the positive person that I am while being challenged this year. I hope you have felt some love from Me <3
The fact that I was being told I was a selfish person for wanting to lay on sand away from everybody was what set the tone as to how I perceived this entire scamdemic. Then come the riots. Being a Huntington Beach local meant I was seeing all the comments saying everybody from here is rascist. Some of them directed right at Me. I was also told from a girl who I thought was My friend that I had privilege because I didnt want to wear a mask. As a Mexican who has held a job since I was a teenager, and an entrepreneur who doesn't take a paycheck from anyone I was completely insulted to be told that not My hard work but My privelege was the reason I wanted to continute to enjoy the great life Ive built. I don't stay friends with people who don't believe in Me and don't support Me.
New bondage bed that hides under the couch / daybed. I set up My dungeon to accommodate Me plus a slave.
I've spent a lot of time working on the dungeon. Did a lot of gardening like I'm sure a lot of you have also. I painted the dungeon walls and decorated. Found special places for the Sardax paintings where I get to see them a lot. I've managed to turn it into a cozy / kinky dungeon staycation. I bought all new rugs, linens and organization for all My toys. It's basically My second home except nothing practical is here unless you can use it for sexual gratification lol For the first 9 years as a Dominatrix I rented space from more established Dominas. Partially for the comradery, it's rare and really nice to be able to talk shop with Girls who understand. I continued to rent for that long partially cause I didn't want the responsibility or commitment of My own space. I had no idea the only pro dungeon in oc would shut their doors during lockdown. I am so glad I decided to step out on My own before I was left unexpectedly with no place to work. Now with Isabella Sinclaire moving to the east coast I have little reason to be in LA now.. Unfortunately for you LA slaves.
I've been focusing on Me more, who even knew that was possible ;) I truly do love Myself. I'm a positive person who isn't afraid of fighting / working hard for what I want / love. I know what I want. I know what I deserve. I know that I'm a good person and good friend. I know that I can be demanding but I'm sweet and most people do not deserve to enjoy that sweet side of Me. To be completely honest, I feel like this covid lockdown / racewar / political season set Me free from a lot of things that I felt like I needed to cater to in order to keep things going. Things like supporting businesses that don't care about Me. Energy vampire clients. Crappy friends who are only there in "the femdom world". Things I catered to because I wanted them to like Me back. Being self sufficient and happy, being able to block out the low vibe bs and come from a place of gratitude with a positive perspective made Me realize I don't really need any of that. It's called choice. I certainly don't care about what other people like or do, I might judge them for being idiots but I leave it at that. Others can't leave it at that apparently. I had already planned to see only people I know already at My new dungeon because I trust their hygiene and their word to tell Me if they've traveled or been sick.. So when riots were beginning & I started to get multiple requests for outcall to areas of massive protests I got huge red flags. I absolutely have felt targeted. So if you've asked to play this year & didn't get a very warm reception or maybe didn't get a response this is probably why. Not sorry, you understand. I debated on sharing this. It's ugly. But it's the truth. It's not always safe for Me & I know that. It's why I cherish My slaves and fans so much, they definitely make it all worth it ❤️
Never in My life have I been a follower and I won't start now. For most of lockdown I kept quiet and let others be dramatic, promote the destruction of America and spew racist garbage. I'd rather be happy vs gain the approval of such victims of their own decisions tho. I'm a proud Mexican. I say it because I'm proud of you My heritage and elders. I don't see people by their skin color or race. What makes people who they are comes from within. I let a lot of "friends" go in My life this year. I'm not playing games. Positivity or gtfo.
They can kiss My perfect ass (that didn't get fat during lockdown) if they don't agree with My positive perspective. It's not about whose lives matter, or being a D or an R. For Me it's about the energy and after leaning into My own energy for months now I realize that I have to protect it that much more. It makes Me sad to see people wasting their lives being angry about everything, not taking care of themselves and then trying to tell Me what to do.
Im almost constantly working on Myself. I want to be the happiest I can possibly be. If I'm not working out I'm intentionally trying to feel positive or connect with someone, I love sharing energy.
I think I have great taste, I make great decisions and I like what a pervert I am. I wish other people would focus more on finding happy vs finding arguments & differences. What ever happened to agreeing to disagree?
I managed to score some used dungeon furniture. Don't I look great on it? Oh and the boots in addition to the many gifts I've gotten sent to Me! Thanks slaves, you guys have been incredible to Me. I love being your Goddess.
I quit being silent about how wrong I felt it all is (the mask police, fake covid numbers and bs reporting to scare people into submission) & began to get a lot of very supportive messages from patriotic pervs who appreciate Me. I didn't realize that you slaves & clients felt the same when you saw girls in My industry rooting for businesses to be ruined & livelihoods demolished - disgusted. I appreciate your words of support. Each note and tribute made Me smile big, thank you! As an entrepreneur I can only assume that those same girls don't take their careers seriously or they don't respect their clients / slaves enough to realize you are those business owners losing everything and you might not completely agree with the bs they were jamming down our throats for the last few months. I hope that I disgust those same people with how happy I am because it's funny to hear their moronic insult attempts 🖤
I had typed this blog and I honestly don't care if anybody reads it. I know My true fans & slaves will. I wanted to address how I've spent the year & how I feel. Closure I guess, cause I'm over lockdown, I'm over staying away from people. We know how to proceed safely. So let's.